mood: laid back
song: heng jiu de heng jiu (forever with you)- sun ho

being skinny is apparently not in. chubs are getting more action than we are. i think i needa put on weight before i can actually get sex! i hate the fact that people will fuck UGLY faces just for the body, that is so surface and shallow.

my love test results:
1. You are attracted to those who are unbridled, untrammeled, and
free.

2. In the process of courtship, the approach that would make you
feel irresistable is straight-forward, just tell you he/she
loves you.

3. The impression you would like to give to your lover is loyal,
faithful, never change.

4. What you hate most in your partner is that the person is
ruthless, cold-blooded, and/or ironic.

5. The kind of relationship you would like to build with your
partner is one that you care not only about the present but
also the future with your partner, a long-lasting relationship
that you can grow with.

6. You can never be stabilized; actually, you are not suitable for
marriage and you don't want to make committment.

7. You think of marriage as a precious thing. Once you get married,
you'll treasure it and your partner very much.

8. At this moment, you think of love as a committment for both parties.

this is so true. i am so gonna end up an old maid together with hanimario. we can celebrate our 2nd 35th birthday together when the time comes! i dun need a relationship, i just need fuckbuddies and shitloades of $$. i love being single but at the same time i miss having the zsa zsa tzu. but i know i'm not one to commit. that, is just so Carrie. looking for love in all the wrong places! lol.

da jie help me with the photo thing, i created a public profile but dunno how to put the pictures in. the profile's seanatz. merci tres beaucoup.

happy monkey year to all and hope this year's angpao $ will be more than last year's!
i'm having people over tomorrow for dinner and if you wanna come please RSVP! i'll be cokking spinach fettucini with herb encrusted chicken.

mood: restless
song: my immortal- evanessance

my pictures are at
http://f2.pg.photos.yahoo.com/ph/sean_atz/my_photos
so please go look at them!

in search for the perfect curtains

2 girls went to centro on sunday and ened up binging at lau pa sat. and there were only 11 men we would have imaginary sex with! are there only so many cuties here? or are our expectations too high? i am so put off by sex rite now. let us all get fat during chinese new year and wallow in self pity after that. i dun need a man to make me feel good. i have gabby and facials and massages and FOOD.

my room's still in a mess. and i need nice japanese curtains, not the ones with hello kitty on them!

mood: blue
song: lonely travel- sun ho


"When it comes to life and love, why do we believe our worst reviews?"

i am so feeling satc now, got the whole of season 5 on vcd from hmv in hongkong which brings me to this. why am i going on an emotional rollercoster and guilt trip now? i feel so bad now cuz i miss him him so much but we are so far apart, he's in neo-nazi land while i'm stuck in this island. the time we spent in hongkong was great, the weather was fabulous and all and he was so sweet. and it is so obvoius that we can never be together cuz we all know that long distance relationships never work. and to think that he would actually ask me to fly over just to spend a few days with him there after not seeing him for 2 whole years. and what bout er jie saying what all bout my dignity?? why am i so bothered by what my closest ones are saying? perhaps i'm being melodramatic, i guess sometime everyone of us gets a hit and run.

i dunno what's wrong with da jie lately, i'm worried for him. hope things work put between you and drew. da jie is ready to find her next great love, after JD and Ollie, i'm all out of great loves.
"When it comes to being carefree single girls, have we all missed the boat?"

and what with jo. we were supposed to catch Mona Lisa Smile together with "charlotte" i.e gavin but my sister got me a pair of tickets for sun ho's concert so i can't just back uot on her since our relationship's already bad enough so me and gavin cancelled on the movie and left jo to watch it all alone and went for the concert instead. sorry dear i'll make it up to you with martinis and lunch? i feel so bad bout it. the concert was not that grest but there were the ballads i was dying to hear

tomorrow's ashton's full month baby shower and i can't stand the fact that i have to entertain all my relatives what with my aunts and uncles and cousins being there.

well things couldn't get any worst with what er jie said, what da jie's going thru, what i've done to jo and ashton's party, and the fact that gabby's not around to talk to, and i dun even know whether gavin understands what i'm going thru. sorry i can't help being dramatic here
i realise that the critic i'm most afraid of - and the one whose opinion counts most - is my own.

mood: thoughful
song: too lost in you- sugarbabes




love is actually, all around

it's finally 2004, and i've decided to go ahead for the hongkong trip despite what many other people are saying. and i'm sorta depressed, i dunno why, mebbe it's cuz of the new year that was just ushered in or mebbe it's the disapprovals i'm getting...

and there's this person (gabby and zac should know who i'm talking bout), i think i like this person and i saw his profile on sgboy and i sent him an email to ask for his number cuz i didn't ask him for it on the two occasions we met! and there's still koji who's been totally busy till i come back from hongkong.

You look into my eyes
I go out of my mind
I can't see anything
Cos this love's got me blind
I can't help myself
I can't break the spell
I can't even try

I'm in over my head
You got under my skin
I got no strength at all
In the state that I'm in

And my knees are weak
And my mouth can't speak
Fell too far this time

Chorus:
Baby, I'm too lost in you
Caught in you
Lost in everything about you
So deep, I can't sleep
I can't think
I just think about the things that you do (you do)
I'm too lost in you
(Too lost in you)

ooh
Well you whispered to me
And I shiver inside
You undo me and move me
In ways undefined
And you're all I see
And you're all I need
Help me baby (help me baby)
Help me baby (help me now)

Cos I'm slipping away
Like the sand to the tide
Flowing into your arms
Falling into your eyes
If you get too near
I might disappear
I might lose my mind
oooh

Chorus:
Baby, I'm too lost in you
Caught in you
Lost in everything about you
So deep, I can't sleep
I can't think
I just think about the things that you do (you do)
I'm too lost in you
(Too lost in you)

I'm going crazy in love for you baby
(I can't eat and I can't sleep)
I'm going down like a stone in the sea
Yeah, no one can rescue me
(No one can rescue me)
ooh ooooh

Oooh, my baby
Oooh, baby, baby, baby

Chorus:
Baby, I'm too lost in you
Caught in you
Lost in everything about you
So deep, I can't sleep
I can't think
I just think about the things that you do (you do)
I'm too lost in you (too lost in you)
oooh

I'm lost in you
I'm lost in you
I'm lost in everything about you
So deep (so deep), I can't sleep (no,no,no)
I can't think
I just think about the things that you do (you do)
I'm too lost in you
(Too lost in you)