mood: depressed
song: i believe -diana degarmo
book: learning to fly

it all seems so cliche unfortunately i didn't make the cut for the first round of idol and it's all a bit sad really i mean gene didn't make it for Ozzie idol as well and he's probably a hundred times a better singer than me so i'm on the phone with gavin complaining that we didn't have the x factor or it's the nerves that got to us but who really knows...

right now i am just so so tired from not getting enough sleep cuz of the audition and me being out everynight

and i am finally writing again

i am not a star
i am a flicker of light in the sky
blink, and you'll miss me

i just blew my only chance of being an idol
sigh

i believe
Have you ever you ever reached a rainbow's end
And did you find your pot of gold
Ever catch a shooting star
Tell me how high did you soar
Ever felt like you were dreaming
Just to find that you're awake
Cause the magic that surrounds you
Will lift you up and guide you on your way

I can see it in the stars across the sky
Dreamt a hundred thousand dreams before
Now I finally realize
See I've waited all my life for this moment to arrive
And finally yeah

I believe in the impossible
If I reach deep within my heart
Overcome any obstacle
Won't let this dream fall apart
See I strive to be the very best
Shine my light for all to see
Cause anything is possible
When you believe yeah